- born in Germany in the same town as myself, by chance (Villingen) when does it ever happen that two people meet each other in a foreign city and start living together to randomly find out that they were born in the same town in the south of Germany

- does not believe in material
anti materialist = spiritualist

-when her grandpa died we said in next to the Maas during a storm drinking her Nono's favourite drink : spricer (a mix of white wine and sparkling water)

- fled from war in Sarajevo to NL, was 3 years old when that happened

- married a guy from Belgrade Serbia

- her getaway are books

she works in a hospital and is researching people with Alzheimer and dementia (memory loss)

-for her home is in the nl, she feels awkward in Bosnia quote "I don't know how to behave" there anymore
1st feedback Eden:

- focus more on Eastern Europe (by that I guess she meant south east Europe)

- how is migration made and what is the difference between expats and immigrants?

- archive interviews and interview more people

- for the next two weeks map out and think about the interviews (methodologies)
- click to go back

- the necklace what her grandma gave her
she wears it always and everywhere
believes in intuition and spiritual
so her grandma is always there when she wears it
her grandma taught her about love and loved her the most
- fled from the war in Bosnia (she is from Sarajevo) to Croatia, Germany to NL

- she loves "cilim" (the specific woven carpets from the Balkans and Persia)

- she is a restaurant/cafe/deli owner called "Lekker of zuid"in Rotterdam

- Loves her family house in sarajevo
Immigrated to the Netherlands where her uncle was living
was 17 when moved to nl

- she says they always treat her and call her "little girl" when she is at her family house
like time stopped

#slatkis (candy)
#slatkamala (cutiepie)
#bombonica (little candy)
#princezica (little princess)
picture taken with my phone at TK Max Tottenham, London
picture from alibaba
picture from Pinterest
Tata (dad) Milovan

- when my parents divorced my dad left to live with another woman
I did not know that back then

anyhow when we started talking again after 2 years of me ignoring him
he invited me into his new home and he showed me what he had took from our old appartment;

a lion fluffy toy (my first toy when I was born), a framed picture of myself (done on a summer vacation in Budva) paper and crayons, ....

SHRINE A shrine (Latin: scrinium "case or chest for books or papers"; Old French: escrin "box or case") is a holy or sacred site dedicated to a specific deity, ancestor, hero, martyr, saint, daemon, or similar figure of respect, wherein they are venerated or worshipped.
Baba (grandma) Jelisaveta/Jelica 80

- grew up in Zagreb, married to a Montenegrin guy (my grandpa) and moved to Belgrade (back then capital of Yugoslavia)

- her every day ritual is to wake up at 6 am, make "Turkish" coffee and lay in bed while drinking coffee
- all her bed sheets have coffee stains

she falls back asleep after her coffee ritual

IDIOSYNCRASY is a mode of behavior or a way of thought peculiar to an individual.

- Bozana grew up in Drvar Bosnia
was living with husband and children in Zagreb Croatia

had to fle because of threats from neighbours in Zagreb

- they left to Belgrade
-her mother stayed in Drvar, so they went to safe her last minute
-the only things she took with her was an alarm clock, a coffee grinder and a suit she wanted to get buried in
________ reminds me of the movie "Rane"
Research question
What is home for people. How do we create a sense of home within ourselves? What is the emotional aspect of the domestic within people who left and moved their physical home because of difficult situations? The little things and rituals that are very personal. What rituals and things make people at home and calm. How do we survive mentally difficult situations like moving homes, war ... what is a digital nomad and could we one day carry our homes with us everywhere. Something liek nomads but in a micro sense. Micro nomads? What if we would carry just the objects what are important to us so we could recreate a safe or nostalgic environment at any moment in time, anywhere. Considering borders, walls, hate, visas, passports, rules, immigration is a topic that is always close to my thoights and heart as i am an immigrant. I grew up in Germnay, Berlin and Goppingen each for 4 years, then Belgrade, one year Tallinn Estonia and now in the Nl, i changed environments a lot. What kept me calm in anxious moments of uncertainty?

I interviewed a couple of foreigners, so people who live outside of their “fatherland” or “motherland”, I found out that older people had more interesting stories as younger ones seem to care only for their electric devices aka phones and laptops. **I would also like to focus more on ex-yu people (yugoslavia was: Slovenia, Serbia, Kosovo, Croatia, Montenegro, Macedonia, Bosnia) because they were involved in the 90s war. Maybe going more Balkan so including more countries or making it international? Still deciding.

An interesting example would be my grandma. Her every day ritual is to wake up early, like around 6 o’clock, make herself black turkish coffee (which is made on a stove with ground coffee an dzezva which is a special device for making turkish coffee), and lay in bed drinking her coffee. All of her bedsheets would be full of coffee stains.
- so in this example I would I would like to recreate that scene aka ritual but in my own way and with different elements added.
Another interesting example would be the call I had with Bozana. Bozana is my cousin from my dad’s side. She was talking about the war in Bosnia and Croatia. Anyhow, what astonished me was the story of her mother. Her mother was very old living in the village of Drvar when the Croatian army came somewhere in the 90s. They last minute went from Belgrade (where they lived at that moment) to Drvar to rescue her and the things she last minute took with her was an alarm clock, a coffee grinder and a suit she wanted to be buried in.
- obvioulsy those items were iportant for her. It is very subjective what items and rituals and moments are important to somebody. I love that individuality of experience.

Therefore I would like to use these rituals of individual stories as inspiration for performances and make “garments” mixed with other “housy” elements (like bread for example) that are transformative and through a special way of transforming them the human wearing it can any time stop and reanrange the “garment” to make into a “room” or tiny “house” where she/he can perform a ritual but at the same time just the transformation of the garment is a ritual for itself.
les artistes
Atsuko Tanaka
Electric dress (1956)
Gino Anthonisse (model Christa van der Meer)
Christa van der Meer for JOIN COLLECTIVE
Lisa Konno making a collection and short movie inspired by her Japanese dad

Tanaka's Stage Clothes (1957) was a performance in which Atsuko quickly switched among specially made outfits to explore themes of constraint and transformation.
Leroy van Halen
Eden Mitsenmacher (practise tutor)
Cristina Cochior (theory tutor)
Anne and Sanne (fashion)
Selina (fashion)
Rebecca Horn
Pat Oleszko
Nick Cave
KOng Ning
product design/ furniture
Spray paint with textile colours and the wood carving machine

milling machine + spray paint gun + maribu textile colours
pacifist (proto) feminist practices, including that of Käthe Kollwitz and Dore Hoyer
Home is where the heart is.
Gaius Plinius Secundus
Gaius Plinius Secundus, a Roman philosopher better known as Pliny the Elder (or just Pliny to his friends) said “Home is where the heart is.” Almost two thousand years later, who would have thought home is where the heart – and other organs – could also be monitored and managed.

*What is the emotional aspect of the domestic within people who left and moved their physical home because of difficult situations?
*What makes home home by analysing very personal stories based on emotional attachments to specific domestic objects or rituals?

#Emotional baggage
#OpeningUp (Balkan people have a hard time opening up; they tend to hide their trauma and emotions and ridicule hard questions)

New book I got a hint for : Djurdja Bartlett books "Fashion East"and "Fashion and politics"

An article from magazine "This is Badland" called "Complex"written by Aleks Eror

An article by Rafaela Kacunic and Nina Vukelic also in magazine "This is Badland"

started doing Spray paint on wood machine with Emiel of my baby portrait

- 3 to 5 garments that are transformed into installations
jean paul gaultier 1997
THEORY / THESIS [a link]
- click on chain to get to process page